Ever since young, I told myself that it's not very nice to cry in public... so I shall keep my tears and let it out during bedtime... Sometimes... When it's bedtime, I'd forgotten about crying. I am not sure whether I wanted to save some face for myself or being optimistic? I guess more of saving face...
How many of my friends had actually seen me cry before? I remember my friends would say that I'm cold-blooded. That movie is super touching...everyone is flooding the cinema except me. And....crying in cinema is not embarassing coz the area is so pitch dark.
So today... I realised that letting out my tears in public is super shuang~ I did try to hold back but somehow I can't keep it anymore...
Goodness... I should be talking about my quite happy Bintan trip and not about letting out...
ends at 12:03 AM
Wednesday, May 19, 2010Y
I quite enjoy slacking
I think I quite enjoy slacking...
Up till today....I've slacked for 12 days already... hm...quite a nice rest. hahaha!!
Started my first jap class on Monday...it's quite fun! A lot of memory work required... had to memorise the characters etc... seems like I'm back to Primary school... do crosswords, write characters... cool!
Yesterday, I revised abit and felt that...wow! actually I've alot to learn~ and memorise.
So next year...one star going Japan.. OMG! I hope I can go with her! Hopefully I can save enough and can at least master some basic conversational skills so that I won't feel so handicapped there... haiz~ Just hope that I can go next year!
Who wanna go Australia with me next year?!!?!?!? We can go attend Horng's Graduation! WHO? WHO?
Actually...I've loads of stuff that needed to be done... I need to write cover letter! I need to pack my room! haiz~ sometimes I looked at the mess I don't feel like starting. haha!!
That's all folks!!
ends at 6:11 PM
Monday, May 17, 2010Y
Slacking mode
I'm in slacking mode now... and I'm quite happy to maintain this status for some time first...
Recalling the past holidays I had...each time right after major exam, I'll be working all the way till the day I started school.
After O level, I went to a fast food restaurant to work... I quite enjoyed the job but I mother disliked it coz I injured my ankle and went home late. So I went to work with her at the factory. Goodness! I wasn't 'looked after' there loh! quite a torture~ one werid aunty trying to accuse me for something which I had not done. Luckily I'm not that blur and naive to admit the accuse! Phew~ survived that job and went back to school.
After the first A level, I went to a local bank to work. I was so into it that I even took up a 6 months contract. However, I ended the contract early and went back to school. So after the second A level, I went to a stat board to work. I started in early Dec, that means I only rested for 2 weeks. I worked and worked...took a few days off to Hong Kong and continued to work till the start of the first week of school.
After that I started my uni life...about one month later... I went to sell luggage... for almost the entire 3 years uni life. For each semester break, I worked more intensively.... and for 2 holidays, I went back to stat board, which means I took up 2 jobs in one holidays. goodness... I wondered how did I survived. So each time one day after the last day of exam, I'll go back to work.
So this time after the last paper... I'm completely free!! I'm a happy slacker~! In a dilenma, wanna be a slacker but then I'm worried that I may slack for a super long time...which is no good! coz I'm learning Jap lang and Driving!! I need to pay sch fee~
So right now, people have been asking...Do you have any goals in life? What do u want to achieve in your career (if i have one)? And how can u use the money you earn to build a meaningful life?
WELL, seriously... I did think about that... it's just that I'm not sure if my goals ae too ambitious... I will probaby need to get into my first job first before I can be sure of what I want. =)
I wish all well~
ps: I went to the temple with ying to pray....and I think un-luck is still with me... things haven't improve... is it becoz I'm not sincere enough? =(
