Oh my god! After I came back from swimming I was like a dead log loh. Slept all the way till now and I still tired!
Today Bedok Swimming Complex was real packed! No place to swim and even if you just stand still at a spot, you might be attacked by those energetic kids learning swimming. After several attempts, I think I finally got back the hang of it. I felt that I have the strength to swim more but no place lah.
Well, my 2 weeks of study leave have officially started. Not a good sign either. After this will come the last lap of exams before the big A comes. Really got to make full use. Cannot slack already.
Anyway, I took my gp last fri. Quite a disappointment. Not quite confident this time coz I didn't manage to finish my papers early, meaning no time to check. I was telling myself this time that I must only make minimal grammar mistake. I'm definitely able to achieve that by checking through what I'd written, but I didn't have the time to. Even when I was asked to stop, I was still writing my very last sentence. I took a longer time than before to do planning. Somehow, my mind was sort of cork up. Talking about compre, quite badly done. I was quite confident about the mid year paper and only got 20 loh. Btw, passing is 22.5. This time I cannot imagine what will happen. Mid year I took 30 mins to do the application question and got 4 out of 8. Now I only used 10 mins! Die liao lah! hahaha!
GP had passed liao! I should not dwell over what I cannot achieve. I should look forward to achieving shockingly good result for the other subjects!
My latest msn nick... Ag (",) the best helping hands u will ever get are those attached to your wrists (",) Courtesy of my cousin U-gene.
That's all folks~! till we meet!

After so many months, i finally picked up the courage to consult my cousin Chem. I'm really very fragile when comes to words. Words from the people I cared meant alot to me and any negative remarks will just leave a scar in me. sound so dramatic, but that's me.
Okay, I thought Chem was over liao manz~! But, I'm starting to see some hope. Yesterday's mock prelim chem was real bad. But, after discussing some answers with my friends, I thought maybe this time I won't die till so jia lat. Hope so~ Meanwhile, I realised I'm really careless. I'm gonna mug and mug! 3 meeks left to the actual prelim and about 2 months left for my big big 'A'. This 2 months will really change my destiny. All depends on me now~!
I realised something... after school I cannot go home! Once I go home then that's it! I'll slack and cannot get back to work liao. So it's better to stay in school to so some revision first or even somewhere else. anyway, school isn't a good place. It's either too hot or too noisy! Basically, now i'm still searching for a perfect place to study. Bedok library is a good place but I hope there'll be a better one. hee! so peepz~! when you wanna mug, ask me along please! I'm definitely on unless I've other plans.
Think that's all for now, I must get into some serious work liao or even go watch national day rally! perfect guide for gp essay. Oh! my general paper prelim is on this friday! wish me luck! I hope I can get a B but quite impossible. hee! Bye~!

I just felt a sense of undescrible frustration in me! AAAARRRrrrrggggggg! Shut up!

Well, this period of time was really worse than getting back my results for the MYE. Getting back results aren't that scary. It's the consequences that came with it after that that made everything so bitter.
Every teachers seemed to be sending me a signal that that's the end of me. Well, I felt threatened and vulnerable but hoping that the worst would never come. Wanted to head for their advice to get a private tutor but now even tutor had no time for me loh. haiz!~
Well, life is unpredictable. I think I took life for granted in the past. I always thought that study wasn't a problem for me. No matter what, I'll still be able to move on and graduate with a degree. Well, I was wrong. What a foolish me~
I didn't live a life of my own but one that was influenced by people. I just make decision just to prove something, but didn't really make an effort to realise it. I could say, I did things for prestige. What a foolish me~!
Time to really do what I'm suppose to be doing. Future seems faint, but I'll add colours to it.
I hold my own destiny.

I'm trapped. Surrounded by so many obstcles that I don't know which way to go.