My life has been in a shitty state and there's nothing worth to be blogged about. Encoutered too many road blocks already. Sort of resigning to fate now. Tired... Tomorrow will be the start of syco intensive prac. Hopefully it'll be a pleasant one. n of coz hope that i'll be able to play with standards...... argh.....can't seems to accomplish anything now, even in CO. Basically I need advice now than consolation. by far... 1. cousin u-gene told me to look for nice job 2. yingning told me to appeal for FASS again 3. wanying told me to appeal for other courses I hope to chat with yushi soon, prob after her exams. maybe also someone who'd experienced this before. seriously i think i'm not good at study...so why am i so bothered? but i also can't find anything that i'm gd at. something which me, ying n laoshi discuss on sat still lingers in my mind. many said god is fair. but i do not agree. or is it i didn't work hard enough? but i think i'd given my 101% last year. trying to build a better 2007, but it didn't appear so. i always tell myself that there're many ppl out there who's in a more terrible state than me. i should feel blessed. but everytime i got envy of what ppl ard me have. recently i really doubted myself alot. i tot i'm this and these...but it seems like i leave an impression which is otherwise. time to shut and sleep. such a crude entry! can't stand myself. disorganization is accompanied with messy thoughts.
